Bliss

Bliss for me used to mean so many different things: an hour spent reading the paper in a steamy coffee shop on a rainy day, weekend brunch with friends, an afternoon walk on the sea wall in Vancouver, or a busy day at work followed by a raunchy night on the town.  Now, bliss is different to me.  Bliss is peeing by myself with the bathroom door closed.  Bliss is silence during a car ride.  Bliss is planning a perfect meal that everyone eats and enjoys.  Bliss is everything I never imagined it would be.

I used to fantasize about being a mom and it was nothing like it actually is.  The things I imagined do happen, don't get me wrong.  But they aren't the defining moments, rather they are a blip on the radar of motherhood: walks on the beach, collecting shells, playing at the park, dinner parties with grandma and grandpa, first smiles, first steps, first giggles...it all happens, and it's all amazing, but the hours of work that go into achieving these milestones are overwhelming.

I spent 6 years after high school honing my post secondary education until I found an amazing career in the library science field.  I not only loved my job, but I loved my co-workers, the city I lived in, my apartment, my friends, my boyfriend.  Going into my 27th year of life and things were good.  Flash forward 3 years and I am married with 2 small children, living in a small town, and working as a stay-at-home mom.  It is the hardest transition I have ever had to make.  Learning how to cook for a small family, changing a diaper every 1/2 hour, spending the majority of my day alone with the 2 kids - it's been a challenge.  Some days I love every minute of it and other days I long for a taste of my old life.

I decided to do this blog in order to share my stay-at-home mom experience.  I have learned that every woman's journey into motherhood is completely different, and this is mine.